Restless Night

I don’t know how I managed to spend most of this weekend just laying in my bed. I think it’s all of this “darkness” that’s setting in. When the days start to get shorter I start to sleep more altogether, and by the time winter hits I’m even less energetic than I usually am. I should be going to school right about now, but I just spent an awful night on the couch fighting a headache and watching a few old episodes of House. A sore throat was also here to greet me as I sat up this morning from the rather warm impression I left on the sofa. How could I possibly handle school after something like that? I’ll probably spend the rest of today wishing I had some pain killers or some more honey to put into my tea. Actually, I may still have some left somewhere in the upper atmosphere of my kitchen cupboard.

After doing a bit of post-secondary research, it seems that I have quite a journey over the next 6 years of my life. In order to get the education that I want, I’ll be required to do 3 years of college and then 3 years of university to become a computer programmer analyst. That’s a nifty title, if I do say so myself. I’d be happy to bring that up in any conversation, especially since I look like anything but a programmer. I’ve been sort of worried as to what direction I’d like to take my life in, but I think I’m fairly comfortable with this decision. I had considered doing theatre and musical theatre in post-secondary but a few things didn’t seem right to me. The cloud of concern that was troubling me most was the money. A university education is not free, and even worse it’s not cheap. I feel that if you can act, you can act. There isn’t a piece of paper in the world that can make you more talented as an actor. You’ll either have what it takes, or you won’t have it what it takes. I don’t think I’d be able to spend thousands of dollars on a Bachelor of Arts and be able to sleep soundly at night. Some of my friends and family are really upset that I’m not going into school for it, too. It gets worse when I tell them I’m going to be pursuing a career in computer programmer instead. I’ve gotten a lot of mixed reactions over it, because apparently the two don’t seem to mix very well. I’ve hardly seen it as a “milk and water” case though.

I hate to stereotype people, but it’s fairly common to see someone who’s excellent with computers lack in human to human interaction. This is where I think I’ll have an advantage if I choose to follow through with being a “Computer Programmer Analyst”. The film studies teacher at my high school has a brother who is more successful with his programming business because he has also had a lot of experience interacting with people. This ability to be more “personable” is a great aid to his programming skills because he can often clearly convey problems or get his point across to people he may be working with or for. It makes sense to me!

My post-secondary plans are most definitely not set in stone as of this point, so I guess anything is possible. Maybe I should skip all the hard work and win the lottery or something…